Everyone Called Him the “Gay Duke” — But on Their Wedding Night, He Knelt and Confessed Everything

Chapter 3

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Beatrice flinched as though the question had struck her physically. "I cannot say. Forgive me, I should not have spoken." She retreated, leaving Alina alone with the riddle.

The carriage that carried them to Ashworth Hall was lacquered black and lined with velvet the color of dried blood. Alina sat opposite her new husband, the span of the carriage an unbridgeable distance. He had shed his boisterousness the moment the door closed. He stared out the window, his profile sharp against the glass, and did not speak.

The silence was a third presence, heavy and strange. Alina watched him. The mask was off, but what lay beneath was not the frivolous fop nor the warm confidant of the garden. It was a man carved from granite, his jaw set, his hands resting on his knees with the stillness of one who had learned to control every muscle.

He did not look at her. The miles unrolled. The light faded.

When the carriage finally turned through the gates of Ashworth Hall, a great house of weathered stone and dark windows, he stirred as though waking from a trance. He descended first and turned to help her down. His gloved hand closed around hers and something in the careful pressure, the way his thumb brushed her knuckle before releasing, sent a jolt through her.

She looked up. His eyes met hers, and for a suspended moment the mask was nowhere in sight. Then a footman approached and the moment shattered. He stepped back, his expression smoothing into pleasant blankness.

"Welcome to Ashworth Hall, Duchess," he said, and his voice was that of a stranger performing courtesy.

Alina followed him inside, her heart beating a hard rhythm against her ribs. The house swallowed them in shadow. Somewhere above, the bedchamber waited.

Part Four

The bedchamber was vast, dominated by a four-poster bed hung with dark green damask. Candles burned on the mantelpiece and the dressing table, casting restless shadows that made the room feel like a stage awaiting the final act of a play whose script Alina had never been given.

Her maid had been dismissed by the Duke an hour earlier, a message delivered through the housekeeper with polite but unyielding firmness. Alina had undressed herself, her fingers clumsy on the buttons, and slipped into the nightgown that had been laid out for her, a confection of silk and lace that felt like armor designed by someone who did not understand the battle.

She sat on the edge of the bed, her hands folded in her lap, and waited. The clock on the mantel ticked. The candle flames shivered in a draft she could not feel. Outside the window, an owl called across the dark parkland.

The door opened.

The Duke entered in a dressing gown of deep burgundy, his feet bare, his hair loosened from its queue so that it fell dark against his collar. He closed the door behind him, and she heard the distinct click of the lock engaging. The sound went through her like a blade.

He crossed the room, not with his public swagger, but with the deliberate, measured strides of a man approaching something he had long anticipated and dreaded in equal measure. When he reached her, he did something that utterly unmade her expectations.

He knelt.

The Duke of Ashworth, the man who had made a mockery of his own wedding, the man London believed incapable of wanting a woman, lowered himself to his knees before her and took her hands in his. His fingers were warm, steady, and she felt the faint tremor beneath them that betrayed the effort of his composure.

"I owe you the truth," he said. "You will not wish to hear it, and you will likely despise me for it, but I will not begin this marriage with another lie."

Alina could not speak. Her heart was a wild thing caged in her chest.

"Three years ago," he continued, his voice rough and low, "I saw you at the Carshelton Ball. You were standing by the punch table, and you laughed at something Lady Carshelton said, a real laugh, not the titter the ton teaches its daughters. I watched you all evening. You danced with three partners, none of them remarkable, and you treated each one with a seriousness that told me you believed people deserved your full attention, even when they bored you. I have never forgotten it."

She stared at him, her mind scrambling to catch up. Three years.

"I could not court you." His grip on her hands tightened as though he feared she might pull away. "My sister's situation made it impossible for me to be seen as anything but a careless fool. If I showed genuine interest in a woman, the wolves would circle. They would tear her apart to get at me, to get at Beatrice.

"So I played the dandy. I encouraged the rumors. I let society think what it wished because a laughing fop is harmless, and a harmless man is not investigated."

Alina's voice came out as a whisper. "And the debt? My father's debt?"

He closed his eyes briefly. "I arranged it. I baited your father's weakness until he was too deep to escape, and then I offered him the one solution he could not refuse: you. I know it was monstrous. I know I have done something unforgivable. But I could see no other way to have you without destroying you first."

A long, trembling silence stretched between them. Alina's mind was a storm of fury and bewilderment and a treacherous, fluttering something that felt terrifyingly like hope. She pulled her hands free.

"You let me believe I was marrying a man who would never want me," she said. "You let me walk into that church believing I would be a prop, a convenient statue to display while you continued your charade. Do you have any idea what that felt like?"

"I do." His voice cracked. "I watched you, and every jest I made was a wound I inflicted on myself. I hated every moment, but I had spent years building this fortress of foolishness, and I could not dismantle it in a day without risking everything: Beatrice's safety, your reputation, my own ability to shield the people I love. I am not asking you to forgive me tonight. I am only asking you to believe that the man you married is not the man the world sees."

She looked at him, really looked, and saw what she had glimpsed in the garden, in the carriage: exhaustion, desperation, a capacity for loyalty so fierce it had twisted him into someone unrecognizable.

"Why tell me now?" she asked.

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