She admitted feeling guilty and cheap about it, and they promised not to repeat it or disclose it to anyone. However, over the years, they continued their close encounters.
Before our vacation, she hadn't seen him for over six months. She claimed she hadn't thought about it until Jason showed up to join us on vacation. I sensed she wasn't disclosing the whole story; I knew Jason hadn't invited himself—she had convinced him to come. I confronted her with this fact before she admitted to it: she wanted an opportunity to meet up with him again, and she had always desired to go on vacation with him, thinking this was her chance.
She confessed they had been close the day before our vacation, caught by security cameras, and they were also intimate during the vacation when I discovered them. She explained that she cares about him and can't resist being physically close to him when they're together, but her love for me remains strong. She emphasized that the relationship with him was purely physical, perhaps trying to make me feel better about it.
She mentioned that as she's gotten older, her desire for intimacy has increased significantly. According to her, reduced intimacy left her constantly unsatisfied and frustrated, since I no longer desired it as much as she did. She professed her deep love for me, but admitted to experiencing sexual frustration for a long time. To cope, she turned to Jason to fill the gap, and it reached a point where she couldn't control her desires, ultimately normalizing the affair.
She revealed that she had sought help from a psychotherapist and was prescribed antidepressants used to treat conditions like depression, anxiety, or obsessive-compulsive disorder, which can help with compulsive sexual behaviors. However, she stopped taking the medication due to concerns about side effects. She claimed that psychotherapy and using certain adult toys had provided some relief, but the affair with Jason persisted. She maintained that he was the only person she had been unfaithful with, and the treatment and adult toys had helped her manage her urges.