I was really happy with my life. I love my wife and children with all my heart. Can I ever get back to that state, or has this revelation permanently altered the course of my life?
I'm absolutely lost right now and honestly wish I was dead. I'm very seriously considering taking care of that. If I can't forgive her and forget this, then I'm going to kill myself. I have no interest in living a different life than what we've had. I'm not that fond of the world anyway, except for my family.
Thanks for reading.
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**Update:**
Thank you all for the support. It's so much to read and absorb.
I'm still numb and in shock. I'm going to take some time for that to wear off before I consider my future.
I've talked to my sister-in-law, and she said my wife is a blubbering mess, telling her she always knew this was going to come back to haunt her, and that she had tried so hard over the years to make up for what she had done. They're trying to get her to go to a shrink, the same as my friends and family are trying to do for me.
I haven't decided to stay in this world or not; I'm still thinking on it. I have no fear of dying; I've had a great life to this point. I have zero interest in any other lifeβa new life, a changed life, whateverβthat doesn't appeal to me. I have to figure out if there is a path back to the life I had built with my wife and family. If there is, I'll stay; if not, I won't.